Depression - It starts with a conflict of aspirations and reality. We are taught to keep our aspirations high, but when we don't see results, when we see ourselves different from the socially optimum, or when we feel like we are missing something in our life that we deserve; our mind tries to understand the reasons and if it fails to do so, the mind turns to self pity. This self pity grows on you over a period of time and it lowers your confidence.
Your mind quickly turns into 'ego save' mode. It looks for external factors to prove to you that you are worth something. You hunt for the smallest appreciation for your existence. If in this desperate state, you do not get that dose of appreciation to keep you afloat; you drown. You drown into this deep state of mental illness where it seems like you are living in a different reality. You look at things and they don't seem real. You try to work on something and it feels like a waste of time. Life seems so dark, sorrow surrounds you and nothing around you interests you anymore.
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